Snippets of today

...or for the lack of anything to blog.

I woke up at 11 am reluctantly thinking that the sun was still angled at 6 am. It was terribly dark at noon.

I'm no longer as sick as I was in the last week. Whatever strain of flu I had, it made my week seem like two. Now I wish that Monday wouldn't be so near.

I went on a podcast marathon today.

I am in love with the mind of Rob Bell. He makes me wanna go to a Bible school. I may just lose my virginity in some Bible school. While that (the latter) would sound awesome and silly at the same time...nah.

I want to move out but can't afford it. It feels wrong, though, the motivation behind it. I'd love to live with friends and all that, but the honest to goodness reason behind that would be my mother. I know she loves me, but the way she lashes out sometimes makes me feel like I'm a spineless 12 year old. (I had issues when I was twelve...memories of being in the sixth grade are somehow blocked out, except for, strangley, grunge music)

I had a weird dream again this morning. It involved clean subway trains and quirky situations and whatnot. It was peculiar.

The other night birthed an epiphany to me. An epiphany that is being realized in fragments.

The -ber months are here. January, in its mysteriousness, seems closer than it should be, and it looks scary. For now at least.